I see stupid people...

My little bitty life in a little bitty town at a little bitty college (or not really) called TSU!

2006-01-29T02:35:36Z

WHOA BUDDY!!!! Long time, no write!!!! Ahhh...I like it that way though. Everytime I update, I am that much closer to my projected graduation of May '07. We shall see if I am on time.

Hmmm what's been goin on? I moved into my apartment...or shall I say sauna. My roomate seems to be phobic of the AC. But the pool is pretty kick ass and the complex usually hosts free catered keggers. I have two new loves in my life: my boyfriend, Eddie; and my new cat, Nemo. Eddie and I are going on three months of bliss; and since we've been together I have learned so much about myself, others, my school, my family, catholicism, swimming, well, everything. Nemo is a crazy kitty. He's soft, fat, and black. Bubba likes him, but Snuffles has been planning Nemo's death ever since he moved into Snuffles' domain. I also have an acrobatic hamster, Gus. He's a crazy fluff ball. And Spike the Beta, well, he won't die. He'll be five this June. I've finished almost all my basics and my minor. I'm edging on full blown major courses. This semester I am only taking 16 hours and with just that, I have around three hours of homework a night! Das ist Scheisser!! But all this studyin isn't for nothin. I'm lookin at internships around D.c. and Manhattan. Apparently the East Coast has fantastic networking for Advertising persons. But I'm just not ready to make the move right now. Well that's about it right now!!! Thank you Sarah "Mothafukin" Pauley for commenting me and making me realize that I haven't updated in months! DOH!

Who moved my cheese?

2005-08-07T00:52:35Z

So my best friend moved away to California on Monday. It's a very bittersweet time. She's worked very hard for this and earned it. She'll be goin to school for pre-med there. I'm so happy for her but I'm already longing for her and it hasn't even been a week since she left. I know that whenever she and I have split up in the past ONE of us...sometimes both of us...have gotten into trouble in someway. But I just know that one day she'll have a practice in Los Angeles and I'll be an ad exec in New York and we'll be taking vacations to the Bahamas together. Miss her much.

I move back to San Marcos in less than two weeks. I'm so excited. Hopefully I'll never have to live with my parents again. I love them dearly, but I'm ready to grow up. And if I ever need to...I'll come back. But I can't wait to see what this year has in store and I'm ready for a change in any aspect of my life.

Food for thought: I read a quote off of a starbuck's cup that read something to the extent of Sunrises are a sign of hope. That the morning light provides hope that you have made it to another glorious day. Well, I found it uplifting. Chao!!!

popeye652 @ 2005-07-26T19:53:00

2005-07-27T00:55:52Z

I've got a cubbard with cans of food, filtered water and pictures of you and I'm not comming out until this is all over. And I'm looking through the glass where the light bends at the cracks and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs, pretending the echoes belong to someone...someone i used to know.
-The Postal Service

Three words:

2005-05-26T02:01:00Z

GO SPURS GO!!!

The playoffs are consuming my life!!!

"And so it is the shortest story, no love no glory, no hero in her sky"

2005-05-16T02:40:14Z

Well I'm back home. Back to work. Five days a week, eight plus hours a day. I've been doing swell. I had a little break up but I'm over the worst. I'm kinda glad to be home and kind of not. Some of the benefits are that I'm working all the time (this = money), I get to sunbathe on my trampolene, I got my nails done, I got my hair done, and I've been working out every day and I already SEE a difference!! I think I'm on track. I just can't wait for my Hawaii trip (and my birthday) to come around...by then I'll be so close to moving back and into my apartment! Well I just wanted to bull shit for a sec. Later!!!

P.S.
I hate the sonics, esp. Jerome James and the pig-tail guy!! i hate the pig tail guy!!! Plus those refs sucked hard core!!!

popeye652 @ 2005-05-03T12:04:00

2005-05-03T17:04:51Z

You're about as mysterious to me as a clogged toilet is to a plumber...reason why you did what you did, who gives a fuck.

popeye652 @ 2005-05-01T11:51:00

2005-05-01T16:55:48Z

This ain't nothin but a heartbreak town, square people in a world that's round and they watch you dancin' without a sound...it ain't nothin, no nothin. You take your number and you stand in line, and they watch to see how high you're gonna climb. Pat on the back, better luck next time, this ain't nothin, no nothin but a heartbreak town.

popeye652 @ 2005-04-30T20:49:00

2005-05-01T01:49:27Z

as of this weekend, i have no life.

popeye652 @ 2005-04-20T16:03:00

2005-04-20T21:04:57Z

If I would have known that you already want to marry another girl, I would not have gotten myself into this situation.

It's the feeling of not knowing where this is going to go...

2005-04-12T05:14:49Z

He's cute
He's nice
He's smart
He's funny
He's cuddly
He's fun
He's a republican

We play beer pong together and sleep in the same bed.

popeye652 @ 2005-04-01T13:16:00

2005-04-01T19:18:12Z

Real gangsta ass niggahs don't flex nuts, cause real gangsta ass niggahs know they got em

The cutest thing ever...

2005-03-27T03:21:06Z

https://webmail.txstate.edu/MBX/af1127/ATT:IMAP:1148/1:1/babybiance2.wmv

popeye652 @ 2005-03-23T22:54:00

2005-03-24T05:02:00Z

Work got cancelled today. Something weird happened with the landlines and cell phones at our school. Weird. Nothing has really happened since spring break. Sometimes I like it when things are so calm like this. I have a huge advertising project due next week but I also have a group of four to work with...so it can't be that bad.

I'm going home this weekend. It's Easter. The question is whether I should hang out here Friday night. There won't be a lot of people here though. That may not be good. Sometimes I feel like a hamster in a cage. I run around my room all day, sometimes I'll let myself out and got into my ball (my car) and eat. The coolest people I know could call me with the funnest things to do, and I'll say no. Then I'll return to my cage and accomplish absolutely nothing.

The thought for the day is: People are really weird...if you let them be.

popeye652 @ 2005-03-20T18:53:00

2005-03-21T00:54:25Z

Godfather the movie rocks my world

All the leaves are brown...

2005-03-19T00:38:57Z

Wow! It's been a damn long time since I've updated!!!

Last night I got back in town from San Francisco! San Francisco is a weird place (not to mention how dizzy it made me) and let me tel you why: (keep in mind this trip was planned last minute and I had no idea what to expect)
It's like someone said...let's take a whole bunch of gay people, chinese people, and homeless people and let's put them in a bunch of hills, add some trollies and shops and call it San Francisco.

Of course there's a lot more to it than that.

I'm the type that when I see homeless people it breaks my heart, but sometimes it even scares me. But at this place, every two seconds some bum is in your face asking you for change. I was ready to slap them.

My dad got this brilliant idea to ride bikes across the golden gate bridge...ummmm. As you know, I'm a nervous person who panics all the time. I hadn't ridden a bike in years. It was an 18 mile bike ride on busy streets with cars honking at me a people all around me. I was really freakin out the whole time. BUT I did it, and I couldn't sit on my ass the next day.

My favorite part of the trip was Alcatraz. If you go anywhere in San Francisco, you need to check this place out. I've always been facinated by our violent society and criminals and the prison system. THIS PLACE IS COOL! It's REALLY creepy...think about it, it's an abandoned prison where they used to house the worst of the worst. Basically, it was a prison within the prisons. I got to see Al Capone's cell and Robert 'The Birdman' Strout's cell. I got to go into solitary confinement (lord have mercy!) and I got to sit in jail cells. I took a tour and all that too. It was a very interesting experience and I will never forget it.

My OTHER favorite memory was waking up on the plane to MC Hammer. He was sitting next to my brother and my brother was talkin to him. WEIRD!!! Hammer time!!

The shopping is pretty cool there. They have almost the same stuff as anywhere else just in huge stores. The weather is GREAT!!! The restaraunts were fabulous...some of the best food I've ever eaten. The hotel was VERY nice and posh. I'd probably visit there again..but it's not my favorite part of California.

damn quizzes

2005-03-06T04:17:56Z

You scored 70% Water
You may feel Water's influence in your birth chart, since you certainly feel it in your daily life -- you're sensitive, emotional and deep, possessed of a poetic and romantic nature. If your man is a Water Sign as well -- a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces -- you're probably a great match, since you share an intuitive connection and you both have compassionate, understanding natures! If he's an Earth Sign -- a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn -- he loves you for your deeply emotional nature, and loves to provide you with the grounding influence you need. If he's a Fire or an Air Sign, yours may not have been the most natural or immediate of connections -- which isn't to say it can't work between you. If he's an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius, he might find you a bit too clingy and sensitive for his tastes; if he's a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius, he might be a bit put off or intimidated by the emotional way in which you approach the world.

You scored 30% Earth
You approach life in an Earthy way -- you're grounded, sensual, practical and reliable. Perhaps you have some Earth Signs in your birth chart. If your Mr. Perfect is an Earth Sign -- a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn -- he's probably attracted to you for your dependability and loyalty, not to mention your utter sensuality. The Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- also make great matches for Earth Signs; if your man is a Water Sign, he's a bit of an emotional dreamer who appreciates you for the way you provide him with a firm, steady base. If he's a Fire or an Air Sign, yours might be a case of "opposites attract"! If he's an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius, he might find your relaxed, sensual nature a bit too, well, relaxed; if he's a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius, he might be interested in something other than your witty repartee.

Who's Your Leading Man?
Now that you've answered some provocative questions about your preferences, it's time to reveal the identity of your leading man!

Quick-witted Mercury
Your leading man needs to be clever and smart as a whip; this type of guy has a personality that is ruled by Mercury, the planet of communication and mental abilities. Actors such as Matthew Broderick, John Cusack, Edward Norton and Ben Stiller are sharp, funny and quirky enough to hold their own with you! You're more attracted to actors who come across as intelligent and articulate than ones who get the most fashion spreads in magazines. By contributing his trademark wit and wisdom to his roles, the Mercury-influenced actor adds substance and dimension to his performances. And, let's face it, what could be hotter than an eloquent declaration of love or the ability to quote Shakespeare, Keats or Frost? Still, the Mercury Man is always chasing the next big idea or role, so you'll need to be creative and resourceful to hold his attention!

popeye652 @ 2005-03-02T21:24:00

2005-03-03T03:34:09Z

I'm so frustrated. Whatever happened to the good old days where a gentleman took a lady out on a date? Instead, all we have know are guys who call you at eleven on the weekends and want you to come get wasted at their frat brothers' house. The invitation is nice, really. However, a real man calls a lady the day before (at least) and asks her if she will join him on a date. I'm not asking for guys to spend money on me. Dates can be free. Let's go to your apartment, watch movies, and eat black olives. I don't think I'm asking for much.

Sometimes I'm an alcoholic

2005-02-27T04:28:57Z

"Sunday morning and I'm waking up
Can't even focus on my coffee cup.
Don't even know who's bed I'm in...
Where do I start, where do I begin."

mm mm mmm ::shakes head::

2005-02-26T19:26:04Z

Brinda: "A wasted shaved pussy...now that's some BULLSHIT!!!"

popeye652 @ 2005-02-24T18:06:00

2005-02-25T00:07:05Z

Knuck if you buck boy

DAMN I'M BORED

2005-02-24T04:35:26Z

Name: AMAY!
* Birthday: July 19th
* Eyes: Brown
* Hair: Brown
* Height: 5'6"
* Shoe Size: 7
* Who lives with you: Leslie
* When is your bedtime? eleven :(

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Flown on a plane: Yes
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: actually...no
* Missed school because it was raining: yes, all the time
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes after I was POSITIVE they liked me
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: hell no!
* Been hurt emotionally: yeeesss
* Had an imaginary friend: nope
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: nope
* Ever thought an animated character was hot? nooo
* Been on stage: yeah
* Cut your own hair: yes...haha
* Had crush on a teacher?: sort of
* Favorite Shampoo: Brilliant Brunette
* Favorite Color: Black, turquise, red
* Day or Night: Night
* Summer or Winter: Summer.
* Lace or Satin: Satin.
* Favorite Cartoon Character: Bobby Hill
* Favorite Food: Mr. Gatti's, Luby's, Ming Tree
* Favorite Advertisement: EAT QUIZNO'S SUBS
* Favorite Drink: Iced Tea, Beer, Margaritas
* Person/persons talking to online: hmmm dunno
* Favorite sport: Basketball
* Favorite Car: Acura RSX

-----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: jeans that are torn, beige shirt, black hoodie
* Drinking: I wish
* Thinking about: A BOOOYYY!!
* Listening to: spurms game

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: no
* Worn jeans: yes
* Met someone new online: Nope.
* Done laundry: need to
* Drove a car: yeah
* Talked on the phone: omg yes!
* Kissed someone: No.
* Said "I love you": No.
* Felt hatred: I like the word "anger"

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
* Yourself: Yes
* Your friends: Some
* Santa Claus: No.
* Tooth Fairy: No.
* Destiny/Fate: I don't know
* Angels: absolutely
* Ghosts: who knows
* UFO's: HAHA
* Aliens: insects on other planets
* God: YES

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you ever wish you had another name? Sometimes
* Do you like anyone? yeah
* Which one of your friends acts the most like you? umm...maybe Kelly
* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Ashley
* Who's the weirdest?: Ashley
* What's the best feeling in the world: Loving somebody.
* Worst Feeling: Betrayal
* What time is it now?: 10:17 p.m. , close to bed time

----------FINISH EACH SENTENCE---------
Let's walk in the: rain
Let's run through: the waves
Let's look at the: animals
Where did all the: beer go?
How are: you doing that?
Why can't you: understand?
Silly, little: boys!
Show me some: lovin
The sky is: beautiful
Tell me: you like me.
Hide me: where I'm safe
Love me: like we're dying
My mom thinks you're: nuts!
She's not: that's hott
Are you that: dumb?

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: NOOOO
2. Ran away: NOOOO
3. Pictured your crush naked: YEAH
4. Skipped school: almost went to court for it
5. Broken someone's heart: yes
6. Been in love: no
7. Cried when someone died: all the time
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: HELLO! Topher Grace!!
10. Done something embarrassing: haha..yeah
12. Cried in school: only in high school

WHICH IS BETTER:

13. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite
15. Girls or Guys: guys
18. Blondes or Brunettes: usually brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: niether
20. Tall or Short: Tall
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: night

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: Is he a lush?
24. Last person you slow danced with: some random guy at Cowboys named "Bubba" (that's the name of my cat)

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: Last night.
27. Stepped outside: About an hour ago.
28. Had Sex: this summer.

RANDOM...
30. Your Good Luck Charm: None.
31. Person You Hate Most: can't narrow it down
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: found my cat
34. Picture on your desktop: Topher Grace
35. Color: Black
37. Artist: hmmm...
38. Cars: Acura RSX
39. Ice Cream: cookie dough
40. Season: Summer.
41. Breakfast Food: french toast

WHO...
42. Makes you laugh the most: my brothers
43. Makes you smile: dunno
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: mom
45. Has A Crush On You: assuming makes an ass out of you and me
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone? yes
47. Who Has it easier? what?
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: I used to.
50. Save AIM conversations: No
51. Save E-mails: occasionally
52. Forward secret E-mails: No
53. Wish you were someone else: No
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: No
55. Wear cologne: no.
56. Kiss: sometimes
57. Cuddle: love it!!!
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: No.

HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your friend?: No.
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: in high school
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: I'm sure I can double that
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day: GOD no!!
63. Been rejected: Yes
64. Been in love?: no
65. Been in lust?: all the time
66. Used someone?: noo!!
67. Been used?: Probably
68. Cheated on?: yes
69. Been cheated on?: better not have been!
70. Been kissed?: Yes
71. Done something you regret?: You have no idea

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: my mom
73. You talked to?: leslie
74. You hugged?: hmmm??
75. You instant messaged?: Dave
76. You kissed?: hmmmm?
77. You yelled at?: my little brother
78. You thought about? not telling
79. Who text messaged you?: Chad
81. Who told you they loved you? mom

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? yes
83. Have tattoos?: no..my dad would kill me
84. Have piercings?: Not anymore
85. Own a webcam?: No
86. Own a thong?: i have hundreds
87. Ever get off the damn computer? Yes!!
88. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: Ja, sprechen mir deutsch! (I know that's a little off...it's been a while)

89. Habla espanol: very slowly, yes
90. Quack?: nope, dolphin noise

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
91. Stolen anything?: never
92. Smoke?: yes
93. Schizophrenic?: no
94. Obsessive?: a little
95. Compulsive?: no
96. Obsessive compulsive?: No.
97. Panic?: hell yeah!!!
98. Anxiety?: YES
99. Depressed?: not really
100. Emo?: mmm...bright eyes!!

WEIRD!

2005-02-22T02:45:42Z

So I have this nervous tick that I'm going to get a boyfriend soon. I've thought in the past "Oh, I would like a boyfriend!!" But the truth is...I wanna run for the hills. I'm not dating right now or anything...I just always get intuitive feelings.

popeye652 @ 2005-02-20T13:42:00

2005-02-20T19:52:22Z

My little brother went to church with my car keys in his pocket. I had to call into work today and I'm anxiously waiting for them to come home. I have no way of getting ahold of them right now.

Anyways...let me tell you a story.

Friday night was Nichole's birthday. Brenda threw her a party at Brenda's house. My friend Chad and I went. Brenda is also friends with Chad. Nichole has a dickhead boyfriend whom I had never met. They've been off and on for about a year and a half and it's been a rocky relationship. Anywho, at about three in the morning, everyone was gone and it was just me, Nichole, Chad, Mike and Sean. Dickhead (Nichole's boy toy) randomly appears in the backyard (where we were) and decided he wants to talk shit to Chad cause Chad had his arm around Nichole. Mind you it's Nichole's birthday and we're at Brenda's house. This isn't the time or place to be starting shit. Besides, big fucking deal...some dude has his arm around your girlfriend (whom you break up with every two weeks). So I told Chad to take off since it didn't seem like dickhead was going to leave. When I came back from that, dickhead decided that now he wanted to fight me and Mike. At this point Mike, Sean and I got into my car and just drove around the neighborhood. Dickhead finally left. Chad in the meantime was on his way home and got a DUI. Nichole went home with dickhead AFTER HE TREATED EVERYONE LIKE SHIT!!!! He even told her "Fuck you bith!!!!" "get the fuck out of my face". Fuck that guy. Ugh! HATE HIM!!!

popeye652 @ 2005-02-19T20:04:00

2005-02-20T02:05:18Z

Too much drama last night. I can't even write about it right now b/c I'm so upset.

Here's the skinny...

2005-02-15T03:27:25Z

I'm sitting here trying very hard to keep my eyes open. I'm so tired.

This weekend has been grousome!! This whole situation has weighed on my heart so much it hurts. This is the story...

Anyone who knows me knows that I am an animal lover. I was born that way, I will die that way. I have two cats whom I cherish very much. My cats and I have an incredible relationship where we can talk to eachother. Anyway, without sounding like too much of a weirdo; simply put, I love my cats!!! I always knew that if anything were to ever happen to them, I wouldn't be okay.

My mom had my room painted this past Wednesday. I live on the second floor of my house. The painter left the windows open, my mom didn't know he did that. So Thursday morning my family left town to visit my brother and I came in b/c I had a car appointment on Friday. I didn't see one of my cats but I didn't think it was unusual. Later that night I was back at school when my dad called me and told me that he couldn't find my cat either and I needed to get down there. So I packed my bag and hauled ass. Five minutes down the interstate I called my mom and told her what was going on. Then it hit me that my room had been painted and the cat must have jumped out the window. At this point I am absolutely livid. My whole family is calling me telling me to calm down and drive safely. But I was so upset I couldn't even figure out where I was. About forty minutes later I got to the house and walked to the doorstep where I found a dead bird. Then I went in the house and the cat was for sure gone. This is really bad b/c he's an indoor kitty with no front claws and no coller. So I spent the next couple of days (one of which I had to work for four hours) crying, searching, and going from place to place to talk to people and see if I could find him. There was a pit in my stomach. Some sort of blackness that comes only when something you love has been displaced out of your life. My world was turned upside down to say the least. My mom came back last night. We immediately put on our shoes and searched for my cat. While we were doing this an older couple approached us and introduced themselves. The live three doors down and had seen our signs. I cried infront of them and told them about my cat. They gave me some advice and we parted ways. This morning I had to drag myself to school to face my life. Instead of turning around to go back home were I wanted to be...I pushed myself and kept going. I say leslie for the first time since this happened and broke down infront of her. I went to my first period. I sat and I couldn't concentrate. But I tried. I got out of class and my mom called me. She was FREAKING out. Turns out, the couple we ran into had heard some barking from their neighbors' dogs and they thought that my cat may be over there. So they went into the neighbor's back yard and sure enough they saw half of my cat (his backside). They didn't know if he was dead or alive so they got my mom. She drove over there and saw him. She dug him out (he was a third in the gas pipe) and put him in the kennel and took him to the vet. He's sitting next to me right now. He lost a little weight and he's a little dehydrated. Other than that he has a few sores around his mouth. Basically, the vet couldn't believe what great condition he's in!

So, every now and then we get life thrown at us. In my world this was a terrible and glorious experience. But, every now and then something happens in our little world.

These are the lessons I learned:
*Prayer is soooooo powerful
*People will help you if you let them
*YOU'RE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Euthenization should be outlawed (the pound is going down!!!)
*Animals are family too!